Could I Learn to Believe in God?

I have tried and it doesn’t seem possible.

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You can tell me that God exists, but nothing inside of me will change.

But, I remember even then wondering why everyone believed, and no one questioned, the existence of God.

The questioning — as I later found out I could call “agnosticism,” never stopped, and only became more of a permanent force in my life. I took to reading about religion and philosophy in high school. Religion and the question of the existence of God became the focus of my academic interests.

I still did not believe in God, or any other god(s). On top of it, I felt like a fraud.

So, I abandoned that path and went to law school, instead. It seemed like the safe and practical thing to do. I realize now that not only did I lack belief in God, I also lacked belief in myself.

Perpetual student, searching for my ikigai. I am an Artist in artistic recovery care of Julia Cameron. Top writer in poetry. ❤️POM-Poet!❤️

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